Loneliness!!!

Albert Einstein once remarked, "It is strange to be known so universally and yet to be so lonely."

Loneliness is one strange emotion that everyone feels quite often in life. it is the fear of loneliness that affect all human beings and it is because of this particular fear that human beings are in an eternal quest for companionships. it is for this simple reason that we all are so keen on making friends where ever we go and also so keen to treasure these relations that we make. The sense of having friends, relatives and loved ones gives you a sense of security that you have people to talk to, you have people to rely on and people to love.

However, there are often quite a number of times when you might just be surrounded with tons of people and yet feel so damn lonely! It's not that you are not surrounded by friends, you might just have your closest friends with you but you just can't help feeling lonely. it's such a strange case but you just can's help feeling like that. i sometimes do identify with what Albert Einstein is trying to convey through his remark and often wonder what does a person do at that time??? how does he come out of this peculiar case of loneliness? Is it because he can't identify with that person or that situation? Or is it universal and everyone goes through it?

My best friend told me that it might be because you don't want to be surrounded by a particular group of people. Then if you dont want to be surrounded by your friends and family who do you want to be surrounded with???

Hmmmmm........too many questions and no ansewers at all.

Epiphany

i hve picked up the blogging pen again and all i can say is dear diary.....

i hve fianlly returned to my blog...to my forgotten blog.....it seems to become my companion for times when i am sad and depressed and this again seems to a time like that.

i have shifted to bangalore and although im missing home terribly, i seem to have fallen in love with this place, it has alomst become my home away from home. one day sitting up on the terrace i was wondering why and i realised that i love it cos it has helped me immensely to move away from my past. it has taught me to become strong......

i have changed a lot from my experience...i dont know whether it is for the better or for the worse but i know that i have changed.

i have learnt not to trust people completely. i have learnt to take things as they come and laugh at difficult situations. it strange how things dont bother me any more. i m not concerned with anything nw. i have become detached from the world and its people. i laugh, i stay perky, jolly and funny with my friends but then at the same time im detached from all of them. if things dont turn out for me, im not bothered i jsut take them as they come. that's jsut all for me.

.all i know that i needed to change. i know i didnt matter at all...n i realised after an Epiphany moment that i meant nothing at all....nothing at all....i was too stupid and dumb to see it and because of that i let myself be used and in the process i had humiliated myself enough to develop a hate for my own self, and had become all the things that i absolutely detested! i hate myself for all that and i think i will never ever forgive myself for it. never ever!!

i often wondered that a person could never hurt anyone else so badly, especially when that person himself has gone through so much. but i guess im wrong.

now i have simply moved away, deliberately......without saying anything....no words...no goodbyes...nothing at all.

its for the better!!

Scattered Pieces.

Pieces here,
Pieces there,
Pieces of the heart everywhere,
Sad pieces, Miserable pieces,
Scattered, Scattered everywhere.

Lost to Me,
Lost to my world,
Lost forever and ever.

Broken by Love,
Broken by Life,
Broken by Everyone,
Whom one could ever dearly Love.

Lost to Me,
Lost to my world,
Lost forever and ever.

Pieces sawed apart,
Pieces torn apart,
And pieces ripped apart.
Sad pieces, Miserable pieces,
Scattered, scattered everywhere.

No one to find,
No one to gather,
No one to collect,
And no one to bring together.
Sad Pieces, Miserable pieces,
Scattered pieces,
Lost forever and ever.

colours of Mumbai

THE DIFFERENT SHADES OF THE CITY OF MUMBAI.

songs that touch your heart.

There are a very few artists in this world who can easily express their feelings so effectively through their songs. Not only do the songs of these artists compel you to feel what they are feeling but they soon touch your heart and become a part of you. James Blunt is one of these artists and his album Back to Bedlam is one album that will completely touch your soul.
Here's one song that touched mine:-


did i disappoint you or let you down?
should i be feeling guilty or let the judges frown
'cause i saw the end before we'd begun,
yes i saw you were blinded and i knew i had won.
so i took what's mine by eternal right.
took your soul out into the night.
it may be over but it wount stop there,
im here for you if only you'd cared.
you touched my heart, you touched my soul
you changed my life and all my goals,
and love is blind and that i knew,
when my heart was blinded by you.
i've kissed your lips and held your hand.
shared your dreams and shared your bed.
i know you well, i know your smell.
i've been addicted to you.

goodbye my lover
goodbye my friend
you've been the one
you've been the one for me.

i'm a dreamer and when im awake,
you can't break my spirit-its my dreams you take
and as you move on, remember me,
remember us and all we used to be
i've seen you cry, i've seen you smile.
i've watched you sleeping for a while.
i'd be the father of your child.
i'd spend a lifetime with you.
i know your fears and you know mine.
we had our doubts but now we are fine.
and i love you, i swear that's true
i cannot live without you.

goodbye my lover,
goodbye my friend
you've been the one,
you've been the one for me.

and i still hold your hand in mine,
in mine when im asleep.
and i will bear my soul in time
when im kneeling at your feet
goodbye my lover
goodbye my friend
you've been the one
you've been the one for me

i'm so hollow, baby, i'm so hollow.
i'm so, i'm so, i'm so hollow.
i'm so hollow, baby, i'm so hollow.
i'm so, i'm so hollow.
--James Blunt
(Goodbye My Lover)

Matters of the Heart.

i hve given up!!!!!!!!! i've tried writing a decent post but nothing helped....so im just letting my thoughts flow as they are...( excuse my grammar, spellings and disjointed thoughts).

can people mean so little? did i mean so little to him??? is it so easy to forget??? can anyone so easily forget??? is it so easy to remove a person from your life????.....my friends tell me that its just too early, that im holding on to a lost cause and with time everything will become alright. may be this is true, may be it isnt??...all i know that for me people do matter a lot....for me each and every person who enters my life holds a special place......and, for me it is not that easy to forget a person, especially if that person was closest to your heart and meant the whole world to you. it is not easy for me to so easily forget a person completely.

my freinds tell me that time will heal everything. probably. but if time had to heal it would have done by now. i know i have to let go.....and i am but then i find it hard to believe that a person can just enter your life one day and simply vanish in to thin air the next. is it soo easy to forget all the times spent together???.....is it so easy to forget thoughts that we shared with each other???..is it really so easy....???

just questions and questions remain.....and memories of times spent.

let the pictures do all the talking.

....footprints in the sand of times gone by.
.......will i ever see you again?

......My one addiction.
...........warm sunsets.
..........Yumm!!!
.....Peace, tranquility and serenity...where art thou?